My experiences with men have all been strictly sex. I haven’t come out of the closet as bi, so my relationships have all been with women. For the most part, I am content with that. It’s hard for me to imagine myself sharing those affectionate, cuddly moments with other guys. I can see myself enjoying it with a trans person though, so there is a bit of internal conflict there. I suppose that could be a toxic masculinity thing.
I have been doing a lot of soul searching and self discovery stuff over the last year. I am slowly allowing myself to get more comfortable with my sexuality. I am moving beyond the gay porn sites and delving into live gay cam shows. I allowed myself to watch Jacklenisxx dominate boys on cam earlier today and have to admit, it stirred something up for me.
Instead of just watching for the fucking, I found myself admiring how free they were with each other. Neither Latin boy was trying to be anything other than himself. They were being real with each other. Maybe I am missing something after all.